Welcoming Roxy: 8.8.16

The two nights before Roxy was born, I had uncomfortable and inconsistent contractions all night long. By the time Monday morning, August 8th, rolled around, I was sure Roxy had settled in for a few more days even though just hours earlier I was convinced we would be at the hospital ready to welcome her at any moment.

I remembered a photo my mom had taken in a bubble bath with me in her belly the morning she went into labor, so I wanted a similar one. Jose took this for me the night before Roxy was born.

These were both taken by Jose, one after the other. Both with my Pentax 645nii – the first is Kodak Portra 400 and the second is Ilford HP5.

Photo by Jose Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Our boys took a bath soon after, and I wanted one last photo of them as just a pair of siblings before their sister arrived and made them a trio.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

I drove Max to speech and occupational therapy that next morning, and the car ride increased the number and intensity of my contractions (as it usually does anyway), but I still mostly brushed them off. I used one of the giant exercise balls in the OT gym to sit on and ease my discomfort, at which point I decided I should probably call my midwife and get her opinion. They agreed I should come in for an exam to see if I was in early labor.

Jose left work and picked up Max from therapy while I drove over there, and met me at the office where my dad then drove our car home and my mom drove our kiddos home (so much to coordinate when this is your third baby!).

After an hour waiting to be seen at the midwife’s office, my contractions got more intense and closer together. Jose was timing them and his app hilariously finally said “you need to go to the hospital right away!” 😉 At which point we left the office without ever being seen for the exam.

Luckily, all of my bags were already in Jose’s car, and I had my parents bring my packed camera bag because I knew I wanted to photograph our experience as long as I could (using film!) while I was in labor. I may or may not have been inspired by meeting Sally Mann earlier in the summer. 😉 Documenting this process was an awesome distraction to have in between contractions and really helped take my mind off the pain. In case you’re curious, I also felt compelled to listen to Weezer while laboring in the car — specifically the song “Thank God for Girls.” 😉 The first shots below are from right after we left the midwife’s office. I had to labor from the backseat because both of our cars have recalls on the passenger side airbag that I didn’t want to chance.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

We settled into our room around 12:30pm.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

I loaded film and did some metering between contractions so I could hand the camera off to Jose from time to time. Of course he had to capture my love for all the ice I could get my hands on. 🙂

Photo by Jose Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Our incredible midwife, Cara, monitored me for about three hours before they decided to admit me, just to be sure things were progressing.

Photo by Jose Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Jose Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

I felt great between contractions and my amazing husband helped keep the mood light, as he always does. It really helped ease the pain quite a bit. And that lovely shower behind us in the photo below? Also one of my favorite pain relievers. That hot, running water felt so good on my low back during contractions.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Jose found a decently comfy spot to relax in between my contractions as well. 🙂 My favorite place to work through them was on top of an exercise ball while holding onto Jose as he kneeled down in front of me. This man is by far the most amazing partner I could ever ask for, and laboring with him by my side was an absolute pleasure. Our whole labor was so quiet and intimate, with just him and I holding each other and working through every contraction that brought us one step closer to our baby girl.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

By the time I got to about 6cm, I decided I wanted an epidural. My first birth experience involved a long labor that ended in a c-section. For my second birth I went all-natural in an effort to reduce as many interventions as possible that could increase my chances for a repeat c-section — and I got the all-natural VBAC that I worked so hard for! This time around I gave myself permission to get an epidural if I wanted one, and after a while, it was obvious to me that I could keep going all-natural if I wanted to, but I was ready for pain relief so I could continue to fully enjoy the experience and hopefully have a less intense birth.

And I’m so glad that is what I opted for. I was able to relax and take short naps. And soon after I got the relief, my water broke and I felt the heavy pressure and need to push.

For some reason the epidural took much better on my right side than my left, but I was grateful because it left me just enough sensation to know how and when to push. I also knew based on my last experience that I needed to breathe into my contractions and push more gently, to help me have a not-so-difficult recovery after. And that’s exactly what I got thanks to Jose’s coaching, our incredible midwife, and the epidural that brought me just the right amount of relief.

Cara eased me through every push and every contraction. Jose held my hand and helped me find just the right amount of strength I needed to make it through to the end. And before I knew it, Roxy was on her way out and I pulled her up onto my chest in the most gentle and peaceful entrance into the world. I honestly couldn’t have asked for a better experience. Jose captured our first photo together below (not film on this one — I stopped photographing with my film camera after I got my epidural and wanted to focus my energy on resting and then pushing).

Photo by Jose Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

I captured the below photos in our recovery room the next morning.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

The honesty of the next photo was really important to me, too. Just me and my girl after our first night together. Un-showered, same robe I labored in, belly still swollen, attached to an IV for extra fluids, film camera in hand, tired as can be, more in love than ever.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Jose brought the boys up to meet her that day, too, and it was the sweetest moment ever.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

And then, we brought her home.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Jose Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

The next day, we took her to her first doctor appointment.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

And every day since, we have continued to immensely love on her as we always will forever and ever and ever.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.LoveMeSimply.com

XOXO

Film February: The Homeschooling / Unschooling Edition

The struggles of taking your children’s education into your own hands can be intimidating. And to loosely quote Night at the Museum: Secret of the Tomb, Larry’s son blew me away when he described his plans for his future: “I don’t know if it’s the thing, but it’s the next thing.” Epic… right!? Who says the next decision you make has to be the FINAL answer.

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Create, Be Brave, and Stay True to What Inspires You

My sweet friend from Rachel sent me this awesome gift from The Giving Keys​ a few weeks ago, and had this to say along with it:

I’ve loved watching your work this year, it just keeps getting better and better, your confidence is shining through more and more. Create and keep pushing. You’re a rock star and the greatest friend a girl could hope for. Lots of love for you, my friend.

Photo by Lea Ciceraro - www.lovemesimply.com

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Falling in Love with Pittsboro, NC: My Favorite Small Town Eatery on 35mm Film — Small B&B Cafe!

Moving to a new town, a new state, can be terrifying. Settling in, finding a new everything. It’s lonely, unknown, and overwhelming. Where is the nearest grocery store? How do I find a favorite new breakfast spot? But, if you take a minute to breath and seek out the beauty of the newness that surrounds you, magic happens.

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Vintage & Antiquing Addiction: My Love for Beggars & Choosers + Screaming for Vintage in Pittsboro, North Carolina… on 35mm Film!

I’m continuing with my series showing my love of Pittsboro on 35mm film. Last week I shared photos from the Chatham Mills Farmers’ Market, and I’ve been invited out to the Pittsboro Farmers’ Market today to shoot some more film — so keep an eye out for those photos in a couple of weeks!

But today right here on the blog, I’m moving on to sharing my images from my favorite store here in town! We moved to Pittsboro about 2.5 years ago and since I have a love of antiques and all things vintage, one of the first shops in town that I ever stepped foot in was Beggars & Choosers! I was instantly in love.

And then I met Pam, the owner, who is endlessly lovable. One of my favorite things she said to me once was, “If everyone is going to be talking about you anyway, you may as well give them something to talk about!” 🙂 Here are two photos of her on Halloween last year.

Portra 160 | Nikkormat | The FIND Lab

Lea Ciceraro | www.LoveMeSimply.com

 

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Experimenting with Various Film Stocks: Kodak Ektar 100!

Kodak Ektar 100

I’m going to start with Ektar in this series of posts, because it has definitely been a favorite of mine! The whole previous post I published last week about my time at the farmers’ market was shot with Ektar, so I won’t repeat those shots here, but please do check it out! One interesting thing I have learned while shooting Ektar is that your regional location has a white balance unique to that area and it greatly changes the results you get. I know, that sounds a little silly and like common sense. But when I shot Ektar on a winter day in North Carolina versus on a sunny March day in the desert of Joshua Tree, California, the results were different than expected! But I still loved each set of shots!

Why I love Ektar: (1) I can overexpose it by one or two stops and it looks gorgeous; (2) some people think it looks to red/pink for portraits but you’ll see below that that’s not always the case and I love it for portraits; (3) grain is minimal unless you’re shooting it in low light, which I also love (seriously, I’m a sucker for film grain!); (4) it gives you gorgeous, punchy colors so it’s awesome for produce, tropics, urban environments, etc! My favorite rule for shooting Ektar is that there are no rules. Seriously. Try it every which way in every type of environment in every type of weather situation and see what happens! You’ll see with all of my photos below that you can get such fun, different results shooting it every which way!

All of the following Ektar photos were scanned and developed by The FIND Lab, and shot with my NIkon F100. All are unedited by me so you can see what it looks like coming from the lab.

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Falling in Love with Pittsboro, North Carolina: The Local Farmers of the Chatham Mills Farmers’ Market… on 35mm Film!

Small towns are the soul of, well, everything. Go to any small town in any country, and you will immediately see the true heart of where you are. My family and I have lived in a lot of different places — thank you Air Force for taking my childhood around the world, and then I married a husband with a spirit as adventurous and wanderlusting as my own!). But two years ago fate brought us to Pittsboro, North Carolina. The sweetest small town that I have fallen head over heels in love with. The type of place where your fellow business owners know you by name, and everyone mutually supports each other’s endeavors. Local, indie businesses thrive on community support. Pittsboro has proven itself to be nothing short of incredible as I have set up shop here in town and began rebuilding my client base when I re-established my business here after our big move from Austin, Texas.

One of my favorite happy places to spend time with other awesome, like-minded locals is at the Saturday morning Chatham Mills Farmers’ Market! The farmers are all so sweet and fun and interesting to talk to. So two weeks ago I finally decided to load up my F100 with some film to document all of the beauty just bursting from the gorgeous produce and other handmade goods that the farmers brought out that weekend. The only part that bummed me out a little was that Fiddlehead Farm wasn’t there– they have the BEST bread, jams, and other treats!! I guess I’ll just have to go back with my film again and catch them another time. 😉

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